Today was a beautiful day. When you hear what happened, you will probably not understand at first why it was so beautiful. You would have most likely been pissed. I should have been too. The fact that I wasn't upset is what made it so...beautiful.
I was tired all day. What's new? Pregnancy problem no. 2,867,007. Tomorrow is Eli's 2nd birthday and I spent all day with Cory cleaning our house inside and outside because we haven't cleaned it in months. It's hard to admit, but really it has been MONTHS since our house was spic and span. I needed to reorganize inside cupboards and bins just to get them organized enough so there was room to put stuff in them that was lying around the house! And Eli has grown out of a lot of toys and clothing so I sorted through that as well. The kitchen appliances were disgusting and I was embarrassed to have them be seen in their icky condition. We have white (yes, white) microfiber couches- ahem, purchased pre-baby- that were dirty and had spills on them from a toddler so those had to be scrubbed down. Just to give you an idea of how exhausted I was, I would scrub the couch with my washcloth a few times, stop to huff and give my body a break, scrub a few more times, repeat. SO annoying for this "Type A personality girl". The things I just listed only touched the surface of everything we had to clean (pun intended). I craved a shower.
Then I baked enough cupcakes and a cake for 25 plus people. At first Eli's party was going to be a few close family members, but then I couldn't help but invite some close friends and kids. Keep in mind that I don't usually ever bake. We eat really clean most of the time so baking is like a twice a year event- Thanksgiving and Eli's birthday, no joke. So I am as slow as a snail at baking. I am too scared I am gonna screw up so I was in the kitchen for over 3 hours. I am very happy my husband reminded me to wear my workout shoes or my feet would have fallen off! Cory worked around me and made some dinner items to help with the hustle and bustle tomorrow. I really craved a shower.
About 5 pm, Cory and I have a little convo- what's wrong with Eli? We started to realize that he'd been awfully quiet all afternoon and sluggish. We stopped everything and thank goodness cupcakes were almost done baking, and we laid on the couch with Eli as his eyes were opening and closing a bit. He felt so hot. He was sick! A half hour later he had a high temp, so we laid him on the couch and he slept on and off for a few hours. After that, we put him to bed, but not until he threw up everything possible. Fortunately he had a ton of fluids before we put him to bed. We both laid hands on him and prayed. I have mixed feelings about him being sick. I hate seeing his little spunky, loving spirit being stolen from him, but also I LOVE all the cuddles we get where he wraps his arms tight around our necks and wants to nuzzle.
After he went down, I had to cancel the party with everyone. I couldn't believe I had to do that- after planning this for a few weeks and then this sickness hit Eli out of nowhere. Fortunately a few adults are still coming tomorrow. Thank God because Cory and I can't eat all of this food and cake! And we didn't want to be alone on Eli's birthday. That would have been so sad.
As I am getting ready for bed tonight I realized that I am not upset. This is the oddest thing in the world because on any other day I would have been so upset that we did all of this work and hardly anyone's coming over, and that Eli will be sick on his birthday. All of this stuff would have piled up over my mind and drowned me. I would have been so angry at the end of any other day. But why not today?
There are these tiny "grace-filled" moments in life, and I believe I got one today! Yesterday was a bad day just being in my body and I was tired. And yet today even though I was tired, my mind and emotions could handle it! Kind of like a little sunshine cracking through the skyline of a cloudy, rainy day. It shouldn't have happened, and I might have missed it! I have been thanking God all evening that little the annoyances and hardships didn't get under my skin one time today. It honestly was so perfect and so...beautiful! I have been so happy and just hum-drum about life and that is not normal for me- that is not how I was raised (I was not raised to be peaceful and just enjoy life) and it's not typical.
I think our lives are filled with grace-full moments, and we really miss a lot of what God does to save us every day. Whether or not you're a Christian, I think God gives them to us, and we just have to look out for them, and that's how much he loves us. I am willing to bet that if you can recognize those moments, then God made those days and moments just for you!
I also had a few cupcakes. Best. Day Ever.
Jess
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